Saving Sara's Soul

52 Stories in 52 Weeks: ## 27 Saving Sara’s Soul

By: Mr. George D. Patnoe., Jr.'s Ambidextrous Brain + Mind.

Sara was born into the world like many female babies, crying and screaming with her first breath of air. As her lungs filled up with oxygen, her mind filled with a cloudy doubt that the world would be fun, even though her parents were so happy that she was a healthy baby. As most babies whose eyes widen wider as she grew into a bigger human being, Sara mind grew wider too. She sensed the world in different ways, as she felt the hands of people touch her face’s skin. Her skin would feel their skin, just as her mind could sense their minds. Sara tried to see beyond the walls of her house, as the sounds from the outside world entered into her ears, but she did not see the outside world through her eyes. She was a prisoner of the moment.

But as that moment changed by the forces of life on her little growing body, her mind changed too. She began to see more clearly as she grew older and she began to hear more clearly too. The sounds from the outside world still entered her ears, and she would wonder about the sounds outside the window. When the moment had arrived for Sara to visit the outside world, her mom took her for a walk around the block. She heard more than she could see, as her mom covered her baby body in a warm blanket. Sara felt safe, but she also sensed that the world beyond her mother’s arms was a strange world, maybe a little dangerous for an unprotected creature on planet earth.

But soon enough, Sara began to feel at ease and comfortable with the surrounding world of her local neighborhood. But Sara did not feel at ease with herself. She realized soon enough that she would not be physically harmed by the surrounding world, but she also realized that a slight sense of danger always seemed to lurking out there, in the surrounding world, just as a tiger who is always hiding in the surrounding forest. She sensed the hiding tiger, but she did not know what it looked like. She could not even guess what kind of hidden tigers were lurking in the surrounding world.

Soon enough, she took her first walk to the yellow school bus. Now, she was surrounded by another kind of world, a world of other pint sized children; and even though she again felt safe from physical harm, she did a nagging sense of the lurking tiger that seemed to be hiding out there in the world. She could not even begin to describe the danger, but Sara just knew that the surrounding world could not be just a peaceful place to live in; as if the world was not a perfectly grand musical composition without a single note of discord.

Sara grew up to be a pretty lady with dark hair, dark eyes, and dark skin too. Sara was a perfect student. As a matter of fact, she studied hard from her first step unto the yellow school bus to the time she received her Masters degree in Mathematics. To Sara, the world of mathematics seemed a perfect world, as long as the numbers were all in their proper places. But when Sara walked out of her last and final class, Sara began looking for her proper place in the surrounding world. The surrounding world seemed so big and grand. Sara had never even looked at a world map or a geography book; so after she took her last step off the college campus, Sara entered a book store and she bought a world geography book.

As she opened its pages, Sara noticed the shapes of the continents, and she imagined the peoples in the surrounding world, the world away from her home town. So without much thought, so she packed a bag: a single traveling bag with a pair of dress shoes and a pair of pants and a dress and a coat and a hat and gloves and packed her personal items like soap, toothpaste, and shampoo, etc. And she boarded a airplane for America. Her mathematical mind began to search for her true home in the world, along with her true selfhood, whatever that was.

As Sara stepped off the airplane in America, she was unexpectedly introduced to a man soon after the moment she observed the thousands of people from around the surrounding world who were all looking for a new home in America. Sara had never driven a car in her life, so when she became carsick in Saul’s car, he wondered what was wrong with her. He had never seen a person become carsick before in his life. He looked in his car’s rear mirror and he told himself that he had an unrequested chauffeur’s job. It seemed to be some kind of destiny, a guy who could drive anywhere in the world, who was going to drive a person who could not even ride in a car, let along drive a car.

But he never asked Sara if she needed a ride whenever she needed to go somewhere far away. She had simply phone up Saul and ask him for a ride to Louisiana. And off they went, driving the two thousand miles to Louisiana. But before the pair drove into Louisiana, they decided to visit New Orleans, where they ate alligator at an alligator bar. A long, fat alligator hung from the ceiling. The people in the bar were all locals, so Sara and Saul felt like the strangers they were. The local people wondered about Saul and Sara, just as Saul and Sara wondered about the local people. The local people seemed happy in their hometown. They had a home. Sara was still looking for a home. Saul had already found his home.

They drove into Baton Rouge, where they stopped at a gas station. As Saul pumped gas, he notice a damaged car. Saul asked the driver what happened to the car, as he looked at the softball curvy dents all over the car. The driver replied, ‘I was driving in Florida when a hail storm bombed my car with softball size ice balls.’ Saul made a mental not to drive through Florida. The air in Baton Rouge was so thick with moisture that Saul realized that Baton Rouge was never going to be home to him or Sara. So Saul drove off to Louisiana’s Lafayette’s state university. Saul saw a pond on the grounds of the university, but he was really surprised when baby alligators were looking up at him. Sara watched as Saul stuck his finger in the pond to tease the baby alligators, but when those sleeping eyes changed to hungry baby’s eyes, Saul pulled his hand out of the water. Saul later learned that the university kept the baby alligators until they were to big for the pond. The college would then pay professional alligator handlers to remove the alligators from the university’s pond.

A year later, Sara phoned Saul and asked if he would like to drive her to Boston to visit a friend. Saul said yes, and off did they go. Boston, an easy city to drive into, but very hard to leave, even with two maps in his hands. After much confusion, Saul looked up towards the sun and he said, ‘Lets go the direction of the sun.’ and sure enough, one highway led to another highway, and they were free of the arctic cold seaside Boston. Later, Saul had learned that even big rig truck drivers paid the local taxi drivers money to guide them out of the crazy streets of Boston.

Soon thereafter, Sara needed to travel to Toronto, Canada. Saul was not surprised when he had received the request from Sara. That was an easy drive for Saul because he was quite familiar with New York and Toronto, Canada. So the pair again drove on America’s highways, with Sara silently looking out the car’s windows at America’s landscape, while Saul listen to the voices of the angels. Saul became more and more aware that he was not just driving a lady around America’s countryside. Oh no dear readers. Saul became aware that he was on a mission to save Sara’s soul from the unspoken pains that she kept hidden inside her mind.

To get to Toronto, Canada, Saul had to drive over the bridges from Niagara Falls. Before that drive over the bridge, Saul parked the car. He walked with Sara, as they walked up to black thick steel bars that fenced the crowds of people who might otherwise fall over into the Niagara Fall’s waters. Of course, during winter time, the ice water itself would scare even the biggest nut jobs from jumping into the Niagara Falls ice water. But during the summertime, a few nut jobs have jumped over the Niagara Falls in many delusional protective devices, like rubber or plastic barrels. As Saul looked up into the misty air, he wondered what was hurting Sara’s soul. He thought to himself that he needed some help from a few of his angel friends.

Saul was beginning to realize that such a silent soul was hiding something, probably some painful memories, but one way or another, Saul was going to wait until Sara spoke the words that would allow Saul to dive in with words of life, truth, and love.

After Sara had visited her friends in Toronto, they headed back home. In no time all Sara had asked Saul to drive her to New York City. Again, it was no problem for Saul. Saul had driven in New York City before, so he knew its streets and roads. During their visit to New York City’s Chinatown, the traffic was crazy and the parking seemed impossible. As Saul circle the block to find a parking lot, he said softly, ‘I could sure use some help from a parking angel.’ Sara looked over to Saul as she said, ‘What do you mean?’ As Saul drove the car through New York’s China town’s thick traffic, he simple responded, ‘Yea, you know angels.’ Saul had then guessed that Sara had no human conception of angels or of the other realms beyond planet earth.

‘There it is.’ Saul reported to Sara as a parking spot appeared in front of a store that Sara wanted to visit. ‘Great! Just what we were looking for.’ They hopped out of the car to walk around New York’s Chinatown. Before they walked into the huge store, they ate at a Chinese restaurant. Saul had learned one thing about Chinese restaurants; they are not exactly the same, except the Americanized Chinese buffet restaurants. The noodles were a weird color, but not weird enough to not eat. Of course, Saul always wondered how they cooked their food, back in the hidden kitchens. They then walked into the store and bought a few items. They had enough time to take care of the real business in New York.

A few years later, Sara mentioned that she needed a ride to California. Saul wondered if she was going to ask the magic question and she did with, ‘I get motion sickness very easily; meaning that I do not like airplanes. Would you drive me to California.’ If Saul did not know Sara as well as he knew her, he would have believed that she was conning him. But he did know Sara, and he would get to know Sara better than Sara knew Sara. In one moment of unspoken utter clarity, Saul realized that he might be Sara’s earthly guide for heavenly freedom, even on earth.

Saul had gained his own sense of heavenly freedom from earthly concerns. After one near death experience after other near death experiences, Saul long ago began to wonder more and more about the mental and spiritual realms of existence, while he mentally left the main money god of the world behind more and more than ever. Saul always wondered why he had survived the transition called death so many times, with seemingly no effort at all. Understand this dear readers; Saul had survived the moment of death so many times that he began to feel as if he was an immortal being; a gifted creature who was supposed to help at least one poor soul, one poor individual who needed to be saved from her mortal selfhood. One of the differences between a mortal creature and an immortal creature is that the mortal creature believes it is a limited creature who is living in space and time; whereas an immortal creature realizes that the real universe is a timeless and space-less idea of the infinite Mind. A mortal creature calculates with their life with their limited perceptions of the human mind; whereas an immortal creature calculates their life with a multi-dimensional Mind or Intelligence called God.

When Saul started to drive Sara from the east coast to the west coast of the United States of America, he realized that Sara did not talk to much, so he started to question Sara about her human life. He found out that she had only studied the universe of numbers during her whole life. She had soon informed Saul that she believed that all she needed to know in order to survive in the world was universe of numbers. Saul quickly realized that Sara had not developed the other aspects of her mind that she needed to survive humanly because she had falsely believed that she only needed to understand numbers for her earthly survival; because in her home country, children were labeled early as either future intellectuals or physical workers. Sara decided that she had to study the wondrous universe of numbers instead working asphysical laborer, with the skin and bones universe. In one sense, Sara had already transcended the need to depend on her skin and bones for her life, for her human survival, because she depended only on her mathematical mind.

As Saul drove Sara across New York, Ohio, Illinois, Iowa, Nebraska, Colorado, (and on through Wyoming, Utah, Nevada, to California,) he felt that Sara was not really connected to anything except her universe of numbers. Could it be that a person is so only wrapped up in their personal little mental universe that they would miss the bigger picture called life? Or in Sara’s case, the mental universe of numbers, that they miss out on the rest of the universes around them? Saul would look over to Sara and wonder what she was hiding from the surrounding world, from the one person who had driven her around America’s land of freedom. Saul did not think Sara was really free as she traveled all around the land of the free. Did she have a personal demon or demons that were set apart from the universe of numbers? Saul would soon learn about one of her personal demons.

As soon as they reached the mountain range of the Grand Canyon, Saul and Sara walked up to the edge of the Grand Canyon. Seemingly alone on the visitors platform, they began to look out into the vast space between the sides of the Grand Canyon. Saul had visited the Grand Canyon long ago, but he still loved looking at its three dimensional space between the two sides of the Grand Canyon. He thought it was a natural picture of the space of millions of millions of years of earthly development, along with human development. He looked out to the invisible space that was hidden within the mountain’s walls, and he saw another realm, a realm beyond space and time. He perceived the spacelessness and timelessness of the Life called God, along with space and time life of planet earth.

As they stood there, by the edge of abyss, Sara softly stated, ‘Why don’t we just drive off the edge and die together.’ Saul looked over to Sara as he responded, ‘Wouldn’t it be better if we lived together first?’ There was no answer from Sara. But the words only confirmed what Saul had only guessed about Sara; that she was not happy living life, no matter what the surrounding world was for her. Saul looked out towards the Grand Canyon as he stated to Sara, ‘It has taken 20 million years for the Grand Canyon to become what it is today, so you and all mankind can see its special message. The earth is about 5 billion years old, and here we are standing on earth’s Grand Canyon. Instead of enjoying the moment, you are contemplating death, even my death. But God and the angels have brought me back to life over and over again, to live life to the fullest, so I must live life. Plus, I do not believe in death, nor do I give so-called death any power. Sara replied, ‘You do not believe you are going to die?’ Saul simply responded, ‘If the universe is a multi-dimensional universe, and since I am at one with the multi-dimensional universe, then logic would dictate that I too, am a multi-dimensional creature. If that is true, then my true spiritual selfhood will never die because it is truly immortal. We are creatures that can know the past, the present, and the future. Now, don’t you understand the magic message of the Grand Canyon?’

Sara replied, ‘What are you talking about, God and the angels?’ Saul said, ‘You have studied the universe of numbers all of your life, but I have thought about the universe of God and the angels ever since I was a boy. You must understand Sara, numbers are used by us so we can understand the physical laws of the universe and other earthly and human topics, but we must also understand the metaphysical laws of the universe; that is, the spiritual nature of the universe. We can measure the age of the earth and the Grand Canyon, and we can measure all of its details, but there is one thing the human mind can not measure, and that is the spiritual atmosphere that is located above the abyss of the water on the bottom of the Grand Canyon. With spiritual eyes, you can perceive realms which your brain could never see.’

As they drove away from the Grand Canyon, Saul then knew he had to teach Sara how to live life, and to love living life, even if it was not the life of numbers. ‘After all Sara, the butterflies and hummingbirds know nothing about the multiplication table, nor did the dinosaurs know nothing about calculus, nor do our pet cats and dogs and birds know a thing about statistics, but all living creatures on earth know something about living their life. Now you have to learn to live your life, the life that is free from numbers, away from your mathematical mind.

Many years later, as Saul drove Sara and two of her friends on a highway of America, they were talking about all kind of things, when Sara stated that she wanted to find a true home. Saul turned to Sara as he replied, ‘First you have to find a home within your soul, before you can find a home in a house.’ One of her friends responded with, ‘What do you mean?’

Saul smiled as he said, ‘If you find a home within your soul, you will have a home wherever you go. But if you find a home only in a house, you probably still be looking for a home. There is a big difference between a home outside your body, and for your body; compared to your true spiritual selfhood which is a spaceless and timeless and deathless home. Your real selfhood is free of skin and bones and blood. Your real selfhood is at one with the Infinite God called Life.’ Silence filled the car.

As Saul drove them back to his house, they could not help but see the angel statues on the front porch, and the angels statues and pictures in the house, and the angel statues in the backyard. Sara no longer thought about death, that unseen enemy that she sensed was out there in the surrounding world. Now she only thinks about life, even the deathless life of Jesus the Christ and the Life called God. She had seen Saul angels do some really amazing things, even if she did not understand it all, just yet. But Saul knew one thing and one thing for sure. After 5 billions years of planet earth’s development, and after millions of years of human development, one more person understood something about the true nature of her real selfhood, not to mention the Life of the universe.

The biggest lesson Saul would teach Sara would be the moment when he would stop breathing his last human breath, if indeed he stop breathing before her last breath. But in any case, Sara would then learn more about eternal life, but she would also learn a true lesson about love.